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Cross mind collaboration rewinds (in time)
Visions in fast forward recline
Cellular divide
Mutation inside
Growth misleading pride
Rearrangements in stride
Convolution's sigh

It's the memories we use to carry our struggle
It's the ceremonies we choose to feel one another
It's the cherries on top that hold us together
Sweet tooths breaking the tether
Scents of heather
Light as a feather
Mother is treasure

As the days of manipulation set in
We must not forget our kin
We must not forge the fetus within
Advancement smiles that cynical grin
Transforming in shapes of space erased
Defaced abolished dimensional confusion replaced
As the fusion of music binds understanding
With the unheard sight of veracity demanding.
Layman hear truth but see lies
Thus forming false language ties
Bursting forth unforgettable cries

Use the laughter inside to balance your soul
It's the jokes we make that we can't control

Start your life where you choose to make it
From there carry forward a purpose created
Hold in your hand what you don't understand
Observe the demand
Supply every strand
Watch the stars in the sand
Fly through the 'verse then land
Sink to the sun then expand
Shoot past the form that pulls at your hand
Then shake what you can to create a life not man
For we live in a stream of an infinite dream
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Confusion is one factor of life that I have yet to grasp. Although I find myself in a constant state of confusion, I cannot seem to see its meaning or purpose. Personally I don't think there really is a meaning or purpose; but rather simply exists to torment and disrupt the minds of innocent people, like myself. To better explain myself, let me describe confusion in a more elaborate manner. Think of confusion as a bubble. The bottle of soap symbolizes a container of potential problems of future and past. The stick represents the body and mind as it is dipped into the convoluted liquid of emotional conflict. As the stick emerges from the vast container of complexity, subtle clarity exists, however, contains something unknown and unwanted. The translucent substance glistens through the whole of the stick; thickening and mystifying upon heavier light. Slowly air is blown upon the mystic liquid as the emotions become more powerful and problems more obvious. All issues form at once as the bubble completes its perfectionist sphere. Its contents now leaving the body creating a visual perplexity; hovering over the individual and causing the mind to be absent from the body. Only with the right reflection of light can the bubble be seen by others, but the creator's fixation causes a continuous sight of the bubble as it travels through the air. Eventually the bubble pops, releasing all tensions and solving all problems; only to be replaced by another forming bubble from the metaphoric stick dipped into a seeming eternal liquid of bewilderment. This is my current feeling of confusion. For when the bubble pops there is a moment of peace and assurance of future clarity. Of course, some bubbles never pop, symbolizing confusing issues that continually persist, only to be lost or forgotten. It seems that confusion, like all emotions, is not to be explained but rather experienced. And through experience, we learn to take control over the bubble. We create its size and condition with either a soft or powerful breath. A bubble eventually becomes something of importance and usefulness, as confusion intrigues the mind rather than disrupting it. It is this that I have yet to experience.
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They fuck you up, your mum and dad
They may not mean to, but they do.
They fill you with the faults they had
And add some extra, just for you.

But they were fucked up in their turn
By fools in old-style hats and coats,
Who half the time were soppy-stern
And half at one another's throats

Man hands on misery to man.
It deepens like a coastal shelf.
Get out as early as you can,
And don't have any kids yourself.

Philip Larkin

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Mourning Electra
Birds of Maya
Rose Hill Drive

Blast the past.
Forget the rest.
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Think about the last time you've danced with a shadow
As it follows and mirrors your every last hour
But soon the light fades and others devour
Soon there are new shades that form a new power

The essence of all beings seeking forms of transcendence
Form rearranging into beings unended
Beings morphing dreams intended
Dreams of remembrance
Rememory commended

This is how winds of life forever blow
Ears open wide with shadows of echoes
Forever yourself captive to deliquescent light
Forever captive held slave to your sight
Fear not the dark for it's where the light goes
Fear not, for fear is not right

And so I stand
Heart in hand
Every single day I can
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Truth is the root
There's evil within
Blasphemy's sin
Yet priest akin
Bible's stories sour
Ill-written blasphemy's hour
From Kings shape
The unnatural grape
Unnecessary hate
Carried through veins
Uttered in trains
Displayed in pain
Reflected insane
Perspective remains
Tools retrace
People deface
Roots of race
Rich calcitrate
Poor sacrifice
Needs' price
Fixed omniscience
False pretenses
Happy hour
Godly devour
Void consume
Forgotten commune
Untold sold
And now priceless prevails
The worlds bottom breeds the worlds jail
While the top enjoy a never ending bail.

Release temptation before temptation prevails
Own thy own mind.
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You must excuse my language, it runs in me deep
As I know too many words for most people respective
So I dumb down what I say and the words that I speak
So that you understand through me the ultimate perspective

Too many men held down by misunderstood translation
Too many women lost in a world undertaken
Too many children confused and alarmed
Too many souls forgotten and harmed
Too many teachers that know little about Earth's creatures
Too many times have those forgot about rhyme
Too many minds have lost the divine
Too many crimes with too little certainty
Too many dimes with not enough charity
Too many rifts and not enough gifts
Too few cares for so many out there

Life is lost lived by all our abuses
Look at me not in majestic nature
I seek not to analyze and rate ya
Love is pulsed in airs reversed
Traversed in time through eyes intertwined
Translated in reflection as we consume perfection
Sensations reparations and remorseful presentation
Brings us to our state and ultimate trait
Our lives depend on minds and what's hidden in rhyme
So reread and reread and heed my mind's vines.

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Sublime unfurled in the ultimate swirl
Live or obliterate
Comparisons are odious
Precision through vision
Dreamnify
I speak not lies
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Slowly we shall digress
Situations unfathomable in heart's distress
Overbearing situations and physic's limitations
And unworldly spacial visitations
Reminding those sought to renounce decision
Visions once risen obliterated by consequence
Fallible justice falsely served through precedence
Forces of nature manipulated over time
Metals melted with electrical current's divine
Mind control juiced through magnetic waves
Perception convoluted forces us back to the caves
The planetary slaves conclave in disarray
Shelved on streets and served like meat
Cooked into stews of hatred breeding envy
Baked in government's chemical drugs
Synthesized in government's black shops served through thugs
Manipulated by white clothed Spoks
Red rock glimmers past forgotten lies
Flows through the oceans of gaseous moons
Seeping through pores of malnourished apropos
Starving majestical minds of nature's prose
And clothing all in garbs of mental fools

Cause we live in times of heart's opposite nature
Government telling us to kill our very own people
Sending our children to lands of deep seeded hatred
Confusing minds and conforming us in quantity
Examining all we are and nothing we really see
But we must surpass all that can ever be
We must rise to a nature of pure equality
Soar to the top of every mountain above
Drink water from springs that aren't infested with things
Elevate our minds to the Void inside
And accept the fate that we must obliterate.

I know it's hard to see life's true perfection
For clash is king where none see the connection.
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"One day, when I awake, I will finally enter the dream state from reality. For when I dream of waking from a dream of reality, only to reappear in my dream, I come to the realization that my reality is in the dream state."
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We must forget all that's gone wrong
It's time to rebuild and replenish through song
Forgive and let relinquish all that has been taken
Remove all flames of fear, like a baby's tear
Gently revoking anticipations of grandeur
'Cause this song won't be heard
Regardless it's not about my word or thought
'Cause truth prevails even through the draught
Even through the quakes of mighty shakes
Do unfurl a whom-like connection to the ultimate mother
Not like the brother of the moon or the father of sun
But the soil of the Earth shall forever hover wholly
Shielding wielding energies from apocalyptic screams
Beating pulses of black blood as their stripped from every hub
Tensions burn infinity 'till nothing balances trinity

'Cause tensions burn infinity 'till nothing balances trinity.
People lost in security afore worry consumes purity
We must rise up as a spirit like the Griffin and the Cherub
As a whole shall we raise above and beyond the stars and sun
As a collective shall we recollect, live or let live's retrospect
While Nantucket nectars ooze soothing succulent juices
Our livers fight the cancer of artificial banter
Nonetheless both delicious, as our senses build our fences
As our minds bind vines pressin' sensations opaque
As we mother seeds of others, for those ones you can't just smother
As the time glides on, so do I... drive by
With the wind in my hair and the beach at my feet
With the sun on my back with its fortuneless fate
Standin' calm and collective as we await to dissipate...
Await to dissipate...Cause it's nature's natural trait...

provoking agile thought like a clouds unformed through golden era's crown of light do we see the sight of peaceful connotations with warlike innuendos of conquering puentos es moi ventos...OH...cremate the eyes of disguise for only two pigments exists for the third color formed through the mesh of flesh melatonin fresh fluid of creative minds like the fountain divine do we drink as we speak the rhymes on our minds and translate the human race as we elevate and progress to the era of eternal sun shines in the eyes of the children we make and food we bake and bread we share with the brothers of water do we see the end to the beginning of the cycle like a Cyclops in the sky seeking out it's people; it's the Greek gods sigh mystical worlds created in the minds and spread through the flow audastic melodies and tantric ceremonies progress once more to the next ultimate level and move our minds to a state of distant dwellings, of distant proximities intertwining mass and space consuming ether from nether as if it never existed just as is done with bible and its pilgrims whose poor souls sunk beneath the sensatious methods and reached out to find the clout whose words disregarded with shout one two another for you and you, and you and you....and ... ...and ...cellar door ... cellar door ... these are words you know, with meanings rearranged makin' people all deranged but when all is said and done sole survivors all that's won for the journey just begun and the waves had start to spun throwing all that's seen and sewn with the needles out our arm and the pills done and gone; parasite for parasite is all gone wrong......all gone wrong..........spread this song.
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Continuous Infinity

I must take you through a journey of segmented time

A journey of love through the force of attraction

A colorless wheel of magnetic incision

Through scalar wave electrostatic potential

And geometric fallacies of perplexed proportions

Where calculus has been created to stupify the people

And hexagonal matrices form through the steeple

And dominatrix priests heard the poor little sheep

Through eyes sought dim in blinding light

And heads shaken deep from the blinding sight


The world needs love not hatred and races

It needs to be stripped of all ill seeded “natures”

Replaced by antithisizing synonyms and pure bred rhythms

Of vibrating waves of time manifesting thoughts divine

As kindred spirits consume the vast of the lost past

And the found future of forgotten fate

Brings humanity together for the final frontier

For hope is not a delusion but the last remaining tool

The final days are always churning for the nearest present moment

To create the movement to abyss and end the universes' struggle

For the life of a 'verse is as short lived as humanity's curse.


Conquer yourself from within as without

Consume all perspectives as they come about

Reject all assumptions and accusations

Forget me not for my clairvoyant thought

Regret not for all done distraught

Refuse control of intolerant power (mongering tyrants)

Replenish this 'verse with fluids unearthed

Recreate all souls lost or forgot

Relive all those that thought were not

Become all with all to come

Truth means truth

Love is all

Continuous Infinity


forever dedicated to Giovanni and Lazarus

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This by far my favorite excerpt from Herman Hesse's, Magister Ludi(Das Glasperlenspiel). In the following quote the word Castalia refers to a province composed of super elite scholars; people devoted to truth and spirit. Waldzell refers to the actual campus for these scholars. The main character, Joseph Knecht, is conversing with a fellow friend from the outside world, whom has become distraught with his life and misguidance. Joseph is providing his esteemed friend with some advice about life and the pursuit of serenity:

"'I should like to talk to you about serenity--that of the stars and the spirit, and also about our own particular Castalian serenity. You have an aversion to it, probably because you have been obliged to follow the path of sadness and because now all sunniness and geniality, our Castalian brand especially, seem to you shallow and childish--cowardly too--and seem to constitute a flight from the terrors and the abysmal truths of reality into a clear well-ordered world of pure pattern and formulas, of pure abstractions and refinements. But, my dear mournful one, even though this flight exists, and even though there may be Castalians who are cowardly and timorous and who play with formulas, even though this should apply to the majority of us, it does not contradict the serenity of the heavens and the spirit, and does not detract from their value and splendour. The easily content and pseudo-serene among us can be opposed by others--men and generations of men for whom serenity was not merely a superficial game but a serious and deep preoccupation. I have known one of them. He was our former music master, whom you saw from time to time at Waldzell, a man who in the latter years of his life possessed this virtue to such a degree that ti radiated from him like light from the sun, that it flooded everything and was reflected in everyone--as benevolence, love of life, good temper, confidence and reliability--who accepted and absorbed its glow seriously.

'I, too, was illuminated by this light, and partook to some small measure of his sunniness and the warmth from his glowing heart... To achieve this serenity is my highest and noblest aim, and also that of many others: you will find it very often among the Fathers of our Order. This serenity is neither a pose nor self-complacency but the highest knowledge and love, the acceptance of all truth, the awareness at the edge of all depths and abysses, the virtue of the Saint and the Knight. It is imperturbable and increases with age and the approach of death; it is the secret of all beauty, and the quintessence of all art. The poet who, in the dancing metre of his verses, praises the glorious and the terrible in life, the musician who lets it ring as pure Present, are both bringers of light, spreading joy and brightness upon earth, even though at first they may lead us through tears and painful tension. The poet whose verses enchant us may be a sad recluse, and the musician a melancholy dreamer, but their work also has a part in the serenity of God and the stars. What they give us is no more than their sombreness, sorrow or fear, but it is a drop of the pure light of Eternal Serenity. When, too, whole peoples and languages seek to plumb the depths of the world by means of myths, cosmogonies and religions, their highest achievement is this serenity. Think for one moment of the ancient Indians of whom our teacher at Waldzell often told us: they were people of suffering, reflection, penance and ascesis, but the ultimate fund of their spirit was light and serenity--serene the smile of the world conqueror and the Buddha, serene the figures of their eschatological mythologies. The world, as their myths portray it, was in the beginning divine, radiant and happy, beautiful as spring--a golden age. But suddenly it grows sick and begins to degenerate, becomes more and more coarsened and wretched, until finally, at the end of four ever declining aeons, it is ripe to be stamped underfoot and destroyed by the dancing feet of Shiva. That is not the end of the world, however. It begins anew with the smile of the dreaming Vishnu who, with his playing hand, creates a new, young, beautiful and radiant world. It is truly marvellous: these people, discerning and capable of suffering as hardly any other, looked upon the gruesome game of world history with horror and shame--the ever-turning wheel of lust and suffering. They saw and understood the decay of creation, the lust and devilry of man and simultaneously his deep longing for purity and harmony, and discovered this glorious allegory for the whole beauty and tragedy of creation--the aeons and the decline of creation, the powerful Shiva who tramples the putrefying world to pulp and the laughing Vishnu who lies in slumber and allows a new world to be born of his divine golden dreams.

'Now as regards our Castalian serenity, it may be only a small and late variety of this great one, but it is entirely legitimate. Scholarship has not always and everywhere been serene--as of course it should have been. With us it is the cult of truth closely bound up with the cult of the beautiful and, in addition to this, with the contemplative care of the spirit, and thus can never entirely lose its serenity; but our Bead Game unites within itself all three of these principles--science, reverence of the beautiful and meditation. Thus, a true bead-player should be permeated with serenity like a ripe fruit with sweet juices, and above all should possess the serenity of music, which is naught else but courage--a serene, smiling, striding and dancing amidst the terrors and flames of the world, the festive offering of a sacrifice.
'...But you must not retire to sleep without first hearing a little music. A glance at the stars and a little sweet music are better than all your sleeping draughts.'
Knecht sat down and played softly and gently. He played a phrase from that Purcell sonata ... The notes fell like golden drops of light in the silence of the room, so gently that the murmur of the fountain in the courtyard could still be heard. The voices of the beautiful music met and merged--gentle and powerful, chaste and sweet. Courageously and serenely, they strode in their innermost ranks through the void of time and the transitory, making space and the night hour, while they lasted, enduring and cosmic..." - pp. 285-288
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"My life, as I saw it, was to be a transcendence, a progress from step to step, a series of realms to be traversed and left behind one after another, just as a piece of music perfects, completes and leaves behind theme after theme, tempo after tempo, never tired, never sleeping, always aware and always perfect in the present. I had noticed that, coincidental with the experience of awakening, there actually were such steps and realms, and that each time a life stage was coming to an end it was fraught with decay and desire for death before leading to a new realm, and awakening and to a new beginning."

- An excerpt from Hermann Hesse's The Glass Bead game. The main character, Joseph Knect, is explaining an experience he coins an "awakening"
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The following is a solution to the what and why questions of the human spirit of life.

Since no religion may be deemed a tool for universal communication (primarily because there is more than one), I will refrain from using any jargon associated with such. Please feel free to translate any of the following into words that better suit your culture, and I will try my best to translate into words all that flows through my mind.

First of all, there are no secrets amongst truth. Secondly, one must know what the human spirit is before one can interpret its relationship to life.

In its simplest form, the human spirit is the force that creates consciousness. It is deemed "human" solely due the fact that science has not been capable of finding consciousness within any other life form; nor is it possible to measure consciousness without projected sense experiences (which unfortunately have yet to be realised).

The human spirit's relationship to life, its purpose, is to translate love and thus propagate creation. The reason for its existence requires a certain sense of mental and visual abstraction and a much heavier dialogue. Nonetheless, I will try my best to describe its essence with the words of this horrible English language:

Imagine the universe ultimately as another life force. As a life force, it undergoes the same struggles of life that result from its creation. Its ultimate goal is to balance these struggles so that it may achieve eternal serenity.

Through serenity life is possible.

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"Look at that cloud landscape dappling the heavens. At the first glimpse one might think that the depth was there where it is darkest, but one sees at once that those soft dark patches are only clouds, that space with all its profundity first begins beyond the borders and fjords of that cloud-mountain and sinks into infinity where the stars reign supreme--those grand and highest symbols of clarity and order for us humans. It is not there in the clouds and in the darkness that the depths of the world and its secrets reside, but in the open and the serene. I implore you, before you go to bed stay and look for a while at these bights and narrows with their host of stars, and do not thrust aside the thoughts and dreams that they may inspire in you."

- An excerpt from Herman Hesse's The Glass Bead Game to aid the invocation of meditation.
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"A human being is part of a whole, called by us the "Universe," a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings, as something separated from the rest--a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circles of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty."

- Albert Einstein